Dec 15, 2015
I finally found my Christmas spirit
Seriously Christmas was almost a no show. I was done and had no energy to push on. Thank goodness for Franco Fetes on the Shaw satellite system. FYI, I only do Christmas in French, that is how I was brought up. I sang in the church choir and honestly Christmas is French for me. Last Sunday after the rain stopped, the fireworks and loud firecrackers started. It was Dec. 12th and the Virgin de Guadalupe day. Carmeh went ballistic, she actually jumped off the sofa….I screamed but she did not hurt her back. On went her Thundershirt as well as channel 942 on the Shaw music station at top volume. The music started to melt my heart a titch. We have spent so much time redoing our set up and relaxation that I/we were done. We discussed not setting up Christmas this year. I agreed but was torn, I have always had Christmas since I was born. Christmas to me and us is lights and a few special decorations and music. Colin who does not have a French background prefers the French music to the English.

… go inside ( before the bugs started to bite ) and well just start putting up Christmas lights. Yes that is Carmeh laying there on the sofa. After dinner Caeli heads directly to bed.

I will admit it is a sad time for me, the first Christmas with both of my parents gone. I find that I weep at the slightest memory. The music makes it worse but it also helps with the good memories. A tough time for me for sure.
Okay, so tonight has been over the top including the tears but I am alright now and ready to move on. Don’t feel bad for me, I needed to express and am happy that we went ahead with Christmas. It had been a fragile few days but I am ready to move forward. Thank you all for being there for me. Hugs to you all.
Special hugs to Colin, he has supported me through so much over the last five years. It is now 9PM local time and I really need to stop and make us some dinner.
Joyeux Noel!


































